And whatever may be the answer is – You are right!
There were times, that I felt uncomfortable of being myself inside and out. I’ve been asked why am I so not comfortable with me. There was this person, who was like my conscience, to whom I can be the actual me. And after writing this post, she had pinged me and asked whats your problem with being happy with yourself.
My reply was “I am balding, I am not in good shape. There are two holes in the place where eyes should be. In each and every photograph I am in I am not even able to find my eyes. My beer gut now shows. I walk like a duck. So what do you want me to be happy for?”
And she replied “Because, My brother is still a beautiful person”.
Nobody is born bald. I was not. I had good hair. I dont know the reason and I have not noticed it for so long. I always walked like a duck. Probably because I had two fractures, but not correcting the posture is never a good excuse. And inspite of these things I was so happy about being myself.
Yes! Because I was in love. The person you are in love with have this ability of finding the only good thing about you and talk about it. They talk about the books we read, the music we appreciate and our attitude. While struck in that magic spell we wouldnt realize that these may be a mere diversion as they cannot say “That you dont look good” at our face.
I was in relationship with this girl. She always used to hold my hands when we walk in the road. I was the same balding self before, but I would walk as if the whole world is mine. She rarely commented about my appearance. Once in a while when she took a photo of mine, the composition would be of tight frame starting from my forehead. And then there was difference of opinions, arguments and we were in the brink of breakup. In order to save the relationship, I went to her place, which was in a different state then. And when I started walking in she said “Your gait has become so different. You do actually walk like a duck like your friends say” At that moment I knew the magic was over and reality had sunk in.
The otherwise carefree person became so different and I started to care more for my hair, limbs and face. Thousands were spent on hair care and fairness creams, under eye creams. When we are desperate nothing works out. Same thing happened to me and I became bad to worse. And then I met another girl.
We went out for dinner and first thing she said when she got out of the auto was “your hair look horrible” I was not able to say anything. I tried my best to look presentable. But it was screwed. The following hours she listed all my short comings and I listened. I didnt have a choice. We had a good dinner. I suck at table manners and was criticized for that too. And when it was time to go home and she took the bus. The bus didnt start and I was standing by the window she was sitting, she said “Inspite of all those things, you are a beautiful soul Prasanna. Thats why I wanted to spend time with you” I never cared to buy any products then.
To know that people actually see the real you, than your hair, body and gait feels really awesome. There were some times when people said I look good, I was confused whether they were sarcastic or real. But then I realized now a days I started to smile more often. I stopped caring about what people saw and concentrated more on what I saw in the mirror. Now surrounded by friends and family, I have no reason to frown (At least for the time being). I should thank these people who are with me.
Here is a video which inspired me to write this. I wonder what would people tell about me.
And I almost for got to say. Whoever you are reading this, you are beautiful inside and out. There can be no one as amazing as YOU for the way you are. Just like me 🙂
Keep smiling
viddev said:
Everybody has something + as well as -ve abt them … All tht matters s we now both and wat wecherish … As I always say , u r the best !! – Vid 🙂
viddev said:
“All tht matters s we know both and wat we cherish” – sorry for the typos, it was from mobile…
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🙂 There was no problem in understanding what you tried to communicate. Thanks Vids
Susan Deborah said:
Beautiful video and an equally beautiful post. Tears welled up when I saw the video. How very true. We are so critical of ourselves that we fail to enjoy us as we are.
Thanks for the post, Bragadeesh. A big hug and a kiss for you.
Joy always,
Susan
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Thanks Susan! First time when I saw the video, I was at office but still tears welled up. Call me emotional or something. But it got me thinking. I should thant Sriram for sharing this in CBC.
Its always a joy to have your visit and comments in blog. Thank you so much
Rajiv. (@RajivNagarajan) said:
Beautiful Post thala Brags.. kalaketeenga ! truly emotive too 🙂
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Thanks Rajiv
prashanthashok said:
Lovely post Bragz 🙂
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Thanks Prashanth
krismy3 said:
Gosh I dunno If you do read this Prasanna 😀 I m on cloud nine after reading your post…I walk like a duck too .. Whenever people called me duck I would go stand by a pond see how carefree the ducks are and try to calm myself 🙂 Same pinch Prasanna 🙂 🙂 🙂 Nice post 🙂
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When girls do I call it the “Meg Ryan” walk.. It would be kinda cute. Same pinch.. Now give the chocolates to me. Thanks for the visit and comments my3
krismy3 said:
He he sure done 🙂
Ti said:
Beautiful post! We all constantly keep comparing ourselves and take it to heart the moment anybody says anything negative about our physical appearance.. it is definitely over rated. We forget to love ourselves, but wonder why do the rest have a problem with us. So love yourself and love everybody around you.
You are a gifted soul. I am sure you can create wonders, so go for it Brags :-):-) lots of love!
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Yeah! Partly I learnt it from you only Shru.. Thanks for th visit and comments. Gifted soul eh?? Try panren
mahesh said:
We are all special BP 🙂 some more special than the others 🙂 jo bhi hoga achha hi hoga 🙂
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Haan bhai! Picture abhi baaki hai na!
Passion of a soul said:
Everything depends on our perception Prasanna anna. You must never forget to keep that one person always happy who you see in the mirror everyday. Because that person is awesome and irreplaceable 😀
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Lakshmi said:
Oh my God!
Lovely post and lovely video!
Inner beauty is what is makes people more splendid. I’ve seen apidiyae stunning gorgeous people but (tell me am judgmental I really did judge this person! anyways) Their character was out right bad, how can I call them gorgeous ipo?
And remember you are God’s own unique masterpiece! How can a masterpiece not be good?!
Keep smiling,
Lakshmi
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Thats the thing Lakshmi. We might not know whether they are really bad. We come into judgements by the way they behave with us or things we hear of them. Everything is relative. As you said, if everyone is Mr. X’s own masterpiece, the above said person is also one of them then.
And if it is not because of wonderful bunch of friends like you, I would have been thought that way only. People are ready to manipulate every word and sentence we use. I think we have discussed this already in FB :-).
Thank you so much for visit and comments Lakshu!!
Sathish Babu said:
So true,,,Everyone is unique and awesome 🙂
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Thanks Sathish Babu! Do visit often
Aiswarya Baskaran said:
I can see confidence emerging out of your writing, which I think is very beautiful ! I wrote about beauty and looks recently on my blog. However, the video didn’t move me and I have some issues with the video itself. This blogger shares my concerns
Keep writing !
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And thanks for grabbing the essence of the post. It is not what others think or tell about us. It is just me realizing that I am good inspite of whatever I was born with. And why I suddenly have this shift, that is because of the wonderful people I am surrounded by. Yeah I had some reservations as well and I went through the comments section in youtube also, but I feel it is a bit like Ayn Rand book or Shanker’s movie. You feel good and then you realize there are lot of flaws.
Thanks for passing by!! And btw your blog is lovely
Asha said:
This post was almost like taking words from inside my head. (I have always been overweight and have a funny gait due to my partially flat foot) I have been teased mercilessly but I am glad the right people find me beautiful!